resolutions.

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” -Psalm 32:8

 

Yes, I know it's 10 days into 2013 and I'm just now writing about resolutions, but hear me out because I do not believe in them.

The word resolution literally means a firm decision to do or not to do something. Being human, how do I have a right to tell my indifferent, growing, learning, mistake-making self to firmly do or not do something FOR A WHOLE YEAR!?

Luckily, I don't. God does.

      This past year I learned a lot about myself as a person.

I realized I enjoyed being a mother more than a party-going friend.

I discovered I am stronger and more motivated than I thought and with that, gained self-awareness and a huge family of CrossFitters.

I uncovered my true love of Jesus, my real friends, and knowledge to know that this {all the aspects of my life} is not my plan.

 
On the first Sunday of 2013 my previous years lessons were put into perspective. My pastor, a great man I am honored to learn from & you can too by reading his blog here, talked about goals and resolutions. Not weight loss or exercising, but our spiritual life goals, the stuff that was going to make us stronger Christians and faith walkers. He asked a simple question:

"What is God's next step for you?"

Sitting there, jotting down notes without really thinking about much, I stopped and repeated the question to myself. What WAS God's plan for me? What IS my next step? 

The only ideas in my head up until this point were about saving more money, getting stronger, and jokingly getting a 3k engagement ring {husband still TBD.}

Probably not along the same lines of what Pastor Heath was talking about or what God actually has in store for me this year.
 
         For the past 4 days I've been praying for discernment over the path I should be taking and my heart has never felt fuller.
I don't know if it's just me or not but when I think about doing works for God I can feel my heart tingle. {By the way, I'm really hoping this is just the Holy Spirit and something isn't wrong with my organs} The love I have in knowing I'm following Him fills me up with so much joy it is hard to explain. It's the same way I feel about Him blessing me with my son.
 
Even though I still don't believe in resolutions, I believe in God's power and I know that He has a plan for everyone, I just hope I am able to truly listen. I pray that you realize this too, your goals should be His goals, not the other way around.

PS, really....let me know if your heart tingles.